urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena ajaymeena ajaymeena 2006-08-22T18:13:13Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena:2794 2006-08-22T18:13:13Z 2006-08-22T18:13:13Z What do i do with myself.After so many years, i am not still able to change my self. 
Same Stupid Self. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena:2522 2006-08-18T18:25:09Z 2006-08-18T18:25:09Z Thand God !! I cleared my prelims? i was really scared.<br />But now i face a really herculean task of covering sea of syllabus in such a short span. I will need a GPS and a speed boat.<br />God give me the strength to find that resolve within.<br />That latent power for super action. And a common sense for selecting my reading material a bit wisely. In all my previous attempts i tried to do a lot of material in too little time...ending up in dumps. I pray that this time the story will be starkly different - it will be story of sweet success.l urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena:2123 2006-07-01T08:22:02Z 2006-07-01T08:22:02Z Same person...same habits...same routine...same grind....same rantings.<br />Truely, my life goes in circle - round and round.<br />But then delusion of one more try keeps me going on, like the dangling carrot.<br />Someday i will make sense of my life - the carrot.<br />But then a try is alas worth it.<br />So here it goes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena:1964 2006-06-10T19:20:32Z 2006-06-10T19:20:32Z I am back in Jaipur.<br />Marriage of cousin is done happily. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena:1653 2006-05-27T05:00:43Z 2006-05-27T05:00:43Z I have been in such a rot for so long that sometimes i wonder whether i will ever get out of this.<br />I feel really frustrated of this learned helplessness.<br />will somebody please help me ??<br />Why all the insights do not translate into behaviour ? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena:1365 2006-05-24T20:10:04Z 2006-05-24T20:10:04Z i really don't know how to deal with her. She's bitch...but i love her deeply.<br />Started my mission...albeit lazily. Couldn't write one good answer in the entire day. i will need to turn around myself. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena:1076 2006-05-24T03:31:45Z 2006-05-24T03:31:45Z finally back in delhi.<br />for the full and final round with UPSC. Last time they returned me empty handed from the interview. This time victory shall be mine.<br />UPSC here i come. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena:1000 2006-05-22T08:21:06Z 2006-05-22T08:21:06Z One maxim that holds true more often than not :<br />never be too excited about anything in life... for that thing very often is denied. Excitation, anyways, is always shortlived...maybe that's in the very nature of our species. All this fretting and ranting because vacation has been cancelled. Heartbreaking.<br />I should get back to my studying for civils. 4 month to go & Mt. Everest to climb. Need some pace.And good habits. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena:666 2006-05-17T02:16:37Z 2006-05-17T02:16:37Z Already i am very excited about our vacation trip.<br />Got my gf's call at 3 in the night. what a pest she is !!i urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ajaymeena:273 2006-05-16T19:20:52Z 2006-05-16T19:20:52Z Great !!<br />okay, the journal is up...i must quickly get used to it.<br />Never done this kind of thing before, i hope i will enjoy it.